Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Breathing an air of disgust..

At this point of time, I personify annoyance. I remain pissed off. I stay aloof from what you call, LIFE. I can’t say what it is, over here, as some futile concerns have saturated the air around me. I do not hope for a better outcome. I do not wish for it. During subtle breaks from intense displeasure, I still thank God for being born in the perfect family, and having the best people in my innermost circle.


Somehow, I am not able to explain the state of affairs going on. It is unjust and mean. However I do not want to reveal it, as I know that there are people who actually rejoice at my sorrow. I have been nagging,  and touchy with my sis and better half who are well aware of my situation , but the issue continues to depress me in all its glory. It is stealing away good times. It is haunting me day in, day out. I am shaken and insecure. I am apprehensive and have forgotten the good things around. I just ceased to see the blue of the sky. Everything appears in black, white and gray to me.

It is just the tough getting going. It is temporary. It is huge as it passes.
God, I know you are reading this. Please help me stand the pain.

11 comments:

  1. god is on blogger???
    ok bad jokes apart...i seriously hope that whatever it is that's bothering u gets better soon!

    n coming back 2 bad jokes...m sure its gonna be a field day for grayquill, the philosopher...looking forward 2 a huge comment from him!

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  2. Sob, yes, God is on blogger.
    And I am sure Grayquillz gonna write a huge comment for u today!

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  3. @Anita... don't you worry. Things will be back to normal in just no time at all.

    x peace x

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  4. No matter what, its not the end of the world....being down means that the good times are about to come soon.. Cheer up :-)

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  5. good luck sweetheart... i wish things work ur way soon....may god bless you and u keep ur spirits high enuf :D. i am sure u wud... never ever give up !!

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  6. Thanks everyone for the good words :)

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  7. Hmmm...Sounds bleak - what do you need from your blogger friends?

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  8. Life sometimes presents you with situations haunting..and u see things black and gray - as you rightly put.. but then it moves on, and there comes a time soon, u see things colorful and beautiful.. and God who read this even before you posted it, is working on it right now! cheers :)

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  9. @ Grayquill.. Nothing..
    @Xray Protiens: Your last sentence is too good..its a drop of chilled water to me... I'm close to an emotional boiling point now.

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  10. Melancholy doesnt suit u..! Write happier blogs..nw that you are out of the tuf times.. :) Cheer up! :) Waiting for more happier posts to stir me out of my melancholy!!!

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